[24 Aug 2004|04:24pm] As I wrote in my other journal... I bought the Legacy edition of Grace today. I've heard some Jeff fans talk about it being "a waste of money" because there "isn't anything new" but I'm a collector. I want the packaged version to keep, not just a bunch of random mp3s that exist only on my hard drive. I'm excited to get it. post comment

A Legacy [23 Aug 2004|11:08pm] The Grace Legacy edition comes out tomorrow.... I'm so buying it. I've heard a lot of Jeff fans complain because "jeff never wanted a lot of what was on sketches or on the legacy edition of grace to be released" How well do they know that??? Of course, these are all the same fans who hate MG. My feelings towards MG are ambivilant. I don't adore her, nor do I hate her. I'm not happy that she's so anal about keeping all Jeff stuff under such tight wrap. It seems a little controlling, but I don't think that she, of all people, is out to exploit her son's memory. I am a hungry fan, and I will eat up everything that is thrown at me. I think MG knows that there are many like me. post comment

[23 Aug 2004|01:42am] First some clarification on my last entry... I love new Jeff fans. I love that there are new people everyday turning to his music and listening to his poetry. It fills me with a great joy everytime I personally meet a Jeff fan, regardless of how long they've been a fan. I just don't think that some of them can relate to Jeff on the same level as I do. They can't talk about him hours on end like I've been known to do. I know I have a bit of an obsession, but nothing has ever made me feel as much as Jeff's music does. I just can't open up about Jeff to some of the newer fans the way I would like to, the way that turns some of my sorrow about the situation into a joy of finding someone who understands. ***** enough of that... A couple of months ago (in my LJ hiatus) I had my first Jeff dream. It was beautiful, it was sad. I couldn't stop thinking about it for the next few days. This is what I wrote about it and I think it sums up the dream quite well. Some of the specifics are left out and allowed only to dwell in my memory. Happiness. And then she realized he was gone. "Why did you leave me?" She asked through the tears. With his head on her stomach, he looked up at her in the amber light. He said. "I am here. Remember me now. This is our moment together. That's it. I believe that Jeff did come to me that night. Just to let me have a moment with him that could never happen in the living world. I'll always have that moment with him. post comment

Strange debate within myself... [22 Aug 2004|11:47am] I belong to jeff_buckley. It can be frustrating, because sometimes there's new, interesting thoughts- but most of the time it can be dribble. Here's an example of a recent post: hey guys, just joined u. Love Jeff and love this community so y not? My fav song is Lilac Wine and i also think that all amazing musicians shuld be given swimming lessons. :( For those of u from Australia, do u know if the Grace legacy edition is coming out tomorrow (Mon 22nd August) or Tuesday? Also any ideas on what the price 'll be? thanx Also i've noticed alot of u hav great jeff icons. i am sick of my icon and was wondering if anyone knows where i can get a good jeff one? thanx again First of all, the spelling annoyed me. I'd like to think that Jeff fans would be mature enough to type in full words. It isn't like the shorthand saves a whole lot of time. This part REALLY grated on my nerves: My fav song is Lilac Wine and i also think that all amazing musicians shuld be given swimming lessons. :( First of all- these two thoughts don't need to be connected into the same sentence. Second of all: how TACKY! Yes- we are all sad that Jeff died by drowning. That doesn't mean that he didn't know how to swim. The Wolf River is known for having a dangerous undertow that claims the life of at least one person a year. It doesn't look dangerous because it's a stretch of water that's only 100 yards from the shore to a little island- so swimmers think that they'll be able to reach shore if anything bad starts to happen. This entry made me think again about a Jeff issue that I can't make up my mind about. I'm assuming that this listener is relatively young and hasn't been listening to Jeff for an incredible amount of time. Her entry just doesn't give the respect to make me think otherwise. Here's my issue. I love hearing about new fans of Jeff. I love people being introduced to his music and falling in love with it, having their lives changed. But it's people like this that make me think: Look, I've been listening to Jeff Buckley for 10 years now. I was listening to him before his death. I went through the anguish of him going missing before finally his body was found. I cried over him. The experience made my heart hurt because I went through losing him. Sometimes I feel that makes me a truer fan than the new ones. I know that isn't fair, but it is a feeling I have. I feel like he means more to me than he could ever mean to this girl. That might not be true, but I can't help thinking that. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way (I've read a lot of discussion on the snobbiness of the original jeff fans) maybe it's just time for me to admit that I am one of those original, snobby, Jeff fans. I'm glad for anyone that finds his music, but as more people become fans- I'm finding less that can have the type of conversation about Jeff that I would find stimulating. post comment

Slowly but surely.... [15 May 2004|05:33pm] This journal will turn into the jeff tribute I want it to be. I wish I knew how to do cool layouts already, so I could just type in the commands and have it ready. I suppose that I could have someone make it for me, but I want to do this on my own. I don't want to have to give credit to anyone. post comment

I miss him [15 May 2004|03:01am] Here is my first post in this journal. I wanted this journal so I can record my thoughts about Jeff without having to post in a community or reveal the obsessed loser I am in my other journal. I think about Jeff daily. Is this normal? Do people usually think about their favorite musician on a daily basis? Maybe. I'll never know. post comment

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